About Me

My name is Susan, or at least that is the name that I have given myself. I was born with another name and sadly, in a male body. I am trans-gendered, the proverbial woman born in a man's body. I took the name Susan upon myself when I was about 4 years old, which is when I came to the conclusion that I was not the little boy that I was born into. From that point on my life was to be a living hell.

I was born in 1965 and grew up in an era without the Internet. I had no way of knowing that my condition was not unique and that there were lots of others like me. Because of this I suffered in silence for decades before I would learn that there were others like me and that my condition was not unique, that there were others who understood how I felt.

This website is all about a hobby of mine that began as an essential survival mechanism. Because in my mind I was a girl and not a boy, the sight of my body was something that brought about great stress, which grew much worse when I had hit puberty. This is the first factor that brought about this behavior of wanting to bathe while dressed. The second was that attitudes towards my rather feminine nature in my family made it impossible to be my "girly" self when others were around. I had to be the "boy" they expected. I shared a room with my younger brother so I had no time to myself where I could be the girl I felt I was. As such, the only private time I ever had was when I was taking a shower or bath, then I had the bathroom to myself and nobody could see me. Putting on women's clothes in the bath solved two problems at once, first, I could be the girl I felt I was, and second by wearing a dress in the bath I did not have to look at the parts of my body that distressed me so much. To this day I still bathe or shower while dressed, being naked is something that I never am.

Today I consider myself to be a non-op transwoman. Non-op because I have not had surgery to change my body, mainly because I just do not have the resources to do it. I am in my fifies now and the prospects of me ever having the needed resources for transition are fading fast.

I am sure there will be people who wonder why I even made this website in the first place. I have long enjoyed pictures of women in wet clothes, I think this reaffirmed in my own mind that it was not so bad that I enjoyed getting wet while dressed myself. So one of the purposes of this website was to give back to the community that likes these sort of pictures by giving out my own wetlook pictures. For me getting wet while dressed is not a sexual thing, it is not a fetish, for me it started as a survival mechanism and just grew into something that is comforting and familiar to me during a daily task that would normally bring great distress.

In time I will add more of my story here, so check back from time to time.